For those of you not familiar with Robert Genn and his newsletter, I want to share with you a link to a particular newsletter which deals with feeling overwhelmed by all it takes to create a painting. He states:
"Generally speaking, books, magazines and other stimuli don't work. You have to steel yourself up and get yourself busy. It's the work itself that rocks the mountain. . . ."
"Painting, for example, can be a parade of minor defeats and failures, but nevertheless the personal and individual working process is more positive than negative. . . . "
To me it spoke specifically about taking that first step - getting past the feelings of not knowing enough, not being good enough, not knowing exactly where to start. It reminded me that I paint because of my own inner feelings and desire to create. If we can get back to that home base, our own feelings of why we paint, then we have taken a major first step toward getting past our fear or feeling overwhelmed.
I haven't painted or drawn anything since Sunday. Does that mean I've stopped painting? In my case, it means my mind is working through what to paint next. In recent months, I've painted mostly 1/4 sheet watercolor paintings. Now, I'm considering a half sheet and a full sheet painting which feels overwhelming to me. I'm thinking of painting a still life, what fabric to use as a setting, what objects to use and how to arrange them. So yes, I'm taking a break and yes, it is partly because it means having to take that first step. But in my head, I am painting, creating and getting up enough nerve to start.